So, I’m feeling pretty good so far. Honestly I feel like a different person for the most part. I haven’t been bothered at all so far by the wine o clock time frame that was haunting me for so long. It is like the switch is just off and I don’t care about it anymore. Even when I cook! And that, I thought, would be hard.
I’m not sure why, but it’s not bothering me in my daily routines. Once in a while I get that warm fuzzy feeling when I think about my old love, wine, and all the dates we had; it comes over me and I pine for that release and relaxation that comes with the first two glasses. And then I think about how it wouldn’t stop there. It would be 6 wines or 8 wines and a half of a pack of cigarettes! Yuck! And then I would cough all night and wake up with bags under my eyes and parched and just feeling shitty! No! I don’t want that.
During this process you’re mind definitely tries to trick you and tell you that you can be like all those great moderators and once you get through this abstinence you can become a moderated drinker! I know that is my mind playing tricks on me because I really seriously don’t think it’s possible.￼
Today I fly out to California for a big real estate convention.￼ This will be a big new adventure without the crutch of alcohol! Meeting 100’s of agents from across the country and just having my own personality to stand on, no wine! I’m excited to see what it’s like. Wish me luck!
The big gala Monday night will be the biggest test. It is definitely a drinking event! So I will have to be prepared and just leave if it’s too much!
So, off to the airport I go. No mimosas on the plane this time. No Bloody Mary because I feel like shit today because I drank last night while I packed – nope! I packed totally sober and I feel great! Even got my workout in this morning already.
It will be different- this new adventure. But I think it will be different in a good way!