Today is day 31. Every day I wrote this in my journal: Today I remain sober and am very happy to do so! I never really understood the “one day at a time” theory until now. It really keep things in perspective. Although, I do feel like this is my forever path, thinking of it as just today and what I will (or won’t) do today is so simple and easy. It really is working for me to look at this journey as small daily steps.
I am so happy 😀 n my new lifestyle. No more hangovers, guilt, bloat (oh that awful bloat), wasted time sitting around for hours drinking, bad food choices, hangover food choices, or missed opportunities! These days I plan my days and evenings around what I am wanting to accomplish in my personal and business life. I think I’ve gotten more clarity and purpose back into my life. I’m dreaming again and seeing my life as my canvas. I’m the artist of my life and I am making it beautiful and happy.
Alcohol has a way of tricking you into thinking you’re painting a happy picture when really you’re stagnating your potential. It’s so hard to see the truth while you’re sucked into alcohol’s tricks. It plays with your perspective and makes you think you’re living a glamorous life when really you’re just living a passive life (or at least I was).
I’m enjoying the free time it has allowed me. The many hours I filled with drinking and recovering from drinking are now spent writing, cooking, painting, exercising, learning and spending time with my loved ones. There is so much I want to do in life. And now I feel I can plan those big trips and adventures and am excited to be more present and feeling great for all the upcoming adventures.
I’ve lost 6.8 pounds so far and still have quite a ways to go but I’ve calculated that by my 53rd birthday in November I should be at my goal weight which will involve a total weight loss of over 50 pounds! It always surprises me how slow the weight loss happens but this time, I’m enjoying the process, not just looking at the final goal. I’m changing my whole lifestyle and enjoying every minute! 95% vegan for the past 30 days has been wonderful for me. I feel so fresh and alive and don’t feel weighed down by bad food choices and excess fat. I’m excited to see where my blood work will come in and where my body will be in a few days, weeks and months.
I’ve been working out 6 days a week and have started meditating every morning (thanks to my hubby encouraging me to join him on the daily meditations). It’s been gratifying to see some changes in my body and I’m also practicing more self care such as manicures, pedicures, hair, and massages. I tended to skip the self care when I was drinking. I would always pick drinking over self care! It’s really amazing how much that wine witch can control when you let her!
Looking back at my past attempts to create this blog “I love my new life” it makes me realize how long I’ve been struggling with that wine witch and how many times she’s won the battle! This time she’s banished from my house! She no longer is invited here! And I’m so happy she’s gone… it’s been a wonderful 30 days and I am excited to see what the next 30 bring!