Reading blog posts with recurring themes for the past 5 years is very unsettling. And yes, I’m still in the same boat mentally with alcohol. Yes, my drinking is less than it was then, not as excessive. But yes, I still drink almost daily and have been smoking too. I am ready to make the official change.
I just turned 50 and I think I can see a theme in my life – even when I go back to journals from my 20’s that I’ve longed to see what an alcohol free life would do for me.
I wonder what I would do with all the time. I wonder what my health and physical body would do. I wonder how I would look and feel.
I’ve been writing about this for many many years. Many more than are documented here.
So I am planning my journey into sobriety starting in January. My wonderful hubby is on board, which helps tremendously. Friends we have will likely be disappointed, but they can drink! We just won’t.
I want to live out the rest of my life more purposefully, more simply, more in tune to myself.
I run a successful real estate team and I love what I do, but I want to explore my artistic side as well. I think with a clear head, I can manage to find the time to transition into the life I’ve always dreamed of:
- I will stretch and do yoga
- I will exercise outside daily
- I will do saunas
- I will lift weights
- I will enjoy epsom salt baths with essential oils
- I will get massages
- I will practice self care daily
- I will grow some veggies
- I will cook healthy Whole Foods daily
- I will rise early and happily greet the day
- I will establish time rules for limiting how much I work weekly
- I will determine when I will paint and create daily and work in my art loft daily
- I will have a loving and sexy relationship with my hubby
- I will spend time with my sons daily doing household daily chores such as cooking
I can’t wait to get started. Of course with our New Year’s Eve party plans and Christmas Eve party plans with our “party” friends I know better than to start this now. But as of January 4 I am done with alcohol. I just want to be done. No more 30 days and back to it. Just be done.
I know there are special events next year like taking the team to Miami and Kristine’s wedding in October! But there are always excuses. And I can attend those events just fine! I do not need to associate alcohol with having fun, but it’s hard because of 25 years of doing just that.
I’m excited and want this year to be a life changer for me. I will meet new people and inspire new people. I think my life will really transform. I’m also nervous about it. I’m nervous to look back at this in a year and have failed. I’m nervous as to what my friends will think. But I’m way more excited than I am nervous. Like way way more.
God- please lift me up to accomplish this goal I have to remove alcohol completely from my life and to focus on those things I’ve always wanted such as wonderful health, a fit body, meditation and peace, creating artistically daily, simplifying my life and eventually by the end of 2020 planning my exit from the rat race and into a life of art, wellness, nature and simplicity. Help me find my way to this goal and stay strong in your hands as I navigate the first sober year of the rest of my amazing gift of a life! In Jesus’ name, Amen!!!