The person I am today is a direct result of the 50 years I’ve been alive making choices.
I love who I am. Who I am is a great mom and wife and an amazing successful entrepreneur. I’ve worked very hard to be successful and I am also a good friend to many. I have managed to put us in a good financial situation through hard work and dedicated savings. I live in a beautiful house on a lake and I have almost no debt. So, people from the outside see my life and lifestyle which includes traveling several times a year and they think I have it all.
However there is this tiny voice in the back of my head all the time telling me I may be missing the boat. I may be missing my true calling. My true authentic self. My true passion.
I think one of the reasons I have always drank so much wine (over the past 20 plus years) is to stop my mind. My mind goes and goes and goes. I’ve always been like that.
ln high school I had straight A’s and graduated with well over a 4.0 gpa. I played volleyball and basketball and was the star on both teams. High scorer in basketball averaging 26 points a game. I worked hard to get to that point because I was not quick nor could I out jump my competition. I learned to use what I had to succeed which was a great brain for plays and amazing shot and ball handling skills.
I stayed in good shape through my mid twenties. In fact at 25 I thought I was in the best shape of my life. I had started real estate just after getting my BA to teach special education. At that time I was married to my first husband. I met one of my dearest friends, Anna, and we soon became real estate and work our partners. I was so happy to weigh about 139 and have abs. I felt so good! If I can get myself back to that point of feeling so amazing and proud of my body this year I will be so happy.
With the new friendship began my entrepreneurial quests. Anna and I would go on to purchase and hold over a million dollars in real estate in the Tampa area and open our own real estate brokerage. We were successful in our mid 20’s through our late 30’s together.
But with that came stress of being an entrepreneur and that’s where the fitness slipped off and the wine took over as stress relief.
The fitness level and health levels have not been a major focus for me from ages 25-50. I’ve focused on business and family. Not on myself.
It’s time for that to change!
I am going to plan this year 2020 to be my year to put it all together. I’ve heard from some of my friends who are a bit older that 50 is the best year. I think I see it now more clearly. I feel clear on my requirements. My own demands on myself to live my life for me. Authentically.
So, quitting drinking has been an ongoing theme and I’ve done several dry months and felt wonderful, only to slip back to bad habits eventually and never to make lasting change.
I will quit. I will put exercise, health, fitness, firmness (!), flexibility and self care in top priority position this coming year. I will also put creative expression through art as a daily practice. So, I will plan how to transition from a 60-80 hour work week to a 30 hour work week and focus the rest of the time on me and my personal goals!
I’ve got the team of agents ready to go. I’ve got a staff of 3 ready to go. I can focus on me because I’ve built this business and worked very hard to make it to this point. I deserve this.
Now it’s time for me. And I can’t wait to see what comes of it! Hindsight is 2020. That’s gonna be my year to put it all together and become my authentic self! I can’t wait to see how it all goes.
I love my new life! 