Hair day! Usually I’d be 3 sheets to the wind by now!

Hair day always meant stopping at the bar next door to the salon to slam down 2 chardonnays and smoke a few cigarettes prior to going to the salon for 2 hours (which would serve me 2 wines)! I would then head home and just keep on drinking. This would be a binge of atContinue reading “Hair day! Usually I’d be 3 sheets to the wind by now!”

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“Welcome to the 4am club”

Said my doctor, an older woman, a few years ago. I was in for my annual check up and had mentioned that I was having a hard time sleeping through the night. Of course, when I had filled out the form asking how many alcoholic drinks I drank each week I lied terribly! What wouldContinue reading ““Welcome to the 4am club””

Was I Blind? The wine made me blind and numb!

It’s only day 6 but I’m really shocked at how I’m feeling. I’ve done dry January and different dry months in the past but the goal was always to drink again in a “controlled” way. This time, with there being no more drinking to “look forward to” I am finding myself evaluating where I amContinue reading “Was I Blind? The wine made me blind and numb!”

Day 5 without wine morning thoughts

I feel good when I wake up. I am not parched and hungover. I can meditate, exercise and stretch easily and happily because I don’t feel like shit from drinking the night before. I didn’t smoke any cigarettes and I didn’t cough all night (at the end of my drinking days I was smoking aContinue reading “Day 5 without wine morning thoughts”

How did I let myself go so far? What happened to self care?

Yikes. As the fog is lifting from a lifelong (it seems) bender and love affair with wine, I wonder, how did I let myself go so far and so badly? It’s only day 4 but as I weighed in at 186.2, I find myself wondering how I’ve allowed wine to win over everything else. MyContinue reading “How did I let myself go so far? What happened to self care?”

Meal Planning for the week – Day 3

I have decided to make Sunday my day for meal planning and grocery shopping. With two teenage sons, having good healthy food on hand that they will eat and want to eat for dinner (that is not just fatty pizza!!) can be challenging. I asked them both for a list of their favorite foods andContinue reading “Meal Planning for the week – Day 3”

Day 1

Today, January 4th, 2020 is my first day on my sober journey to my new life. I’ve been anxiously awaiting this day with much excitement. I’ve been drinking a lot for many years (25 plus) and especially heavily this past year. I’m hoping to document my journey to creating the real me here on myContinue reading “Day 1”

Organization

I’ve never been able to maintain a schedule or organization in my personal life. I do for my business; I have to in order to run my company and sell real estate. So my business is booming, but my personal life has always been based on alcohol consumption for “fun”. I am trying to calculateContinue reading “Organization”

Getting Excited to be Good at Something Besides Drinking and Working!

As I get closer to the start of 2020 and loving my new life I will be creating, I’m getting excited about the possibilities. I believe that our life can be anything we want it to be. I’ve created an amazing life for myself so far and now I’m really getting excited to see whatContinue reading “Getting Excited to be Good at Something Besides Drinking and Working!”

Sober Stress Relief and Friends

Stress relief is the major concern I have with my coming year of testing sober living. I think I use wine to escape my responsibilities. This is not a good thing, I know. It gives me a break from work and home responsibilities and lets my mind go free for an hour or two. ThoseContinue reading “Sober Stress Relief and Friends”