My 16 year old son got into a lot of trouble at the end of 2019. This lead to me increasing my drinking and to me smoking almost a pack a day of cigarettes (I was formerly a “social smoker).” We found him smoking pot and sneaking out at the beginning of his 10th gradeContinue reading “Yesterday was a hard day topped with crazy dreams!”
Category Archives: pre menopause
12 days and 7 pounds – it’s so much easier to lose weight
For years I tried to diet and lose weight while drinking wine. It was a struggle. A constant battle, to say the least. Now that I’m not drinking it so mush easier to control my food intake. I tried Adkins and I tried low carb and intermittent fasting over the past years but it wouldContinue reading “12 days and 7 pounds – it’s so much easier to lose weight”
Day 11 of the new me – feeling STRONG
It’s 5am and I’m up and excited to face the day. I feel wonderfully recharged after a great night sleep and I’m feeling positive because I can feel my life improving every single day. So far it’s been easy being sober. I haven’t thought much at all about drinking and have had very few cravings.Continue reading “Day 11 of the new me – feeling STRONG”
Drunk vs sober
I was thinking of the many contrasts and thought I’d start a list that we can all add to. This should be fun. Numb vs feeling Embarrassed vs proud Present vs absent Dying vs living Self centered vs loving Head ache vs clear head Red eyes vs clear eyes Sad vs happy Numb vs nervousContinue reading “Drunk vs sober”
Hair day! Usually I’d be 3 sheets to the wind by now!
Hair day always meant stopping at the bar next door to the salon to slam down 2 chardonnays and smoke a few cigarettes prior to going to the salon for 2 hours (which would serve me 2 wines)! I would then head home and just keep on drinking. This would be a binge of atContinue reading “Hair day! Usually I’d be 3 sheets to the wind by now!”
“Welcome to the 4am club”
Said my doctor, an older woman, a few years ago. I was in for my annual check up and had mentioned that I was having a hard time sleeping through the night. Of course, when I had filled out the form asking how many alcoholic drinks I drank each week I lied terribly! What wouldContinue reading ““Welcome to the 4am club””
Was I Blind? The wine made me blind and numb!
It’s only day 6 but I’m really shocked at how I’m feeling. I’ve done dry January and different dry months in the past but the goal was always to drink again in a “controlled” way. This time, with there being no more drinking to “look forward to” I am finding myself evaluating where I amContinue reading “Was I Blind? The wine made me blind and numb!”