Drunk vs sober

I was thinking of the many contrasts and thought I’d start a list that we can all add to. This should be fun. Numb vs feeling Embarrassed vs proud Present vs absent Dying vs living Self centered vs loving Head ache vs clear head Red eyes vs clear eyes Sad vs happy Numb vs nervous

Hair day! Usually I’d be 3 sheets to the wind by now!

Hair day always meant stopping at the bar next door to the salon to slam down 2 chardonnays and smoke a few cigarettes prior to going to the salon for 2 hours (which would serve me 2 wines)! I would then head home and just keep on drinking. This would be a binge of at

“Welcome to the 4am club”

Said my doctor, an older woman, a few years ago. I was in for my annual check up and had mentioned that I was having a hard time sleeping through the night. Of course, when I had filled out the form asking how many alcoholic drinks I drank each week I lied terribly! What would

Was I Blind? The wine made me blind and numb!

It’s only day 6 but I’m really shocked at how I’m feeling. I’ve done dry January and different dry months in the past but the goal was always to drink again in a “controlled” way. This time, with there being no more drinking to “look forward to” I am finding myself evaluating where I am

Day 5 without wine morning thoughts

I feel good when I wake up. I am not parched and hungover. I can meditate, exercise and stretch easily and happily because I don’t feel like shit from drinking the night before. I didn’t smoke any cigarettes and I didn’t cough all night (at the end of my drinking days I was smoking a

How did I let myself go so far? What happened to self care?

Yikes. As the fog is lifting from a lifelong (it seems) bender and love affair with wine, I wonder, how did I let myself go so far and so badly? It’s only day 4 but as I weighed in at 186.2, I find myself wondering how I’ve allowed wine to win over everything else. My

Meal Planning for the week – Day 3

I have decided to make Sunday my day for meal planning and grocery shopping. With two teenage sons, having good healthy food on hand that they will eat and want to eat for dinner (that is not just fatty pizza!!) can be challenging. I asked them both for a list of their favorite foods and

Day 1

Today, January 4th, 2020 is my first day on my sober journey to my new life. I’ve been anxiously awaiting this day with much excitement. I’ve been drinking a lot for many years (25 plus) and especially heavily this past year. I’m hoping to document my journey to creating the real me here on my

Organization

I’ve never been able to maintain a schedule or organization in my personal life. I do for my business; I have to in order to run my company and sell real estate. So my business is booming, but my personal life has always been based on alcohol consumption for “fun”. I am trying to calculate

Simplifying

We acquire and store so much clutter. In our drawers and closets I have so much crap! I mean crap I think I will use someday, will need later; crap I don’t ever use! I am on a mission to simplify this stuff. I started last weekend and did all the kitchen drawers. That felt