Difficult times survived without Drinking!

In the past everything was an excuse to drink. I drank to reward myself for working hard and I drank to deal with stress and to celebrate success. Any reason was a good reason in my mind. I “deserved” it and I considered it my right! I drank a lot and often! Over the years

Experiment on myself

So, I’ve done this experiment several times and it always yields the same results. Gray area drinking is a real issue many face and I am definitely one of those people. I started the year 75 days sober. I finished that test (experiment) and I had lost 12 pounds and I was feeling amazing. I

Giving the power to my Kids – what’s your BIG WHY?

If I knew then what I know now… something we’ve heard a million times for sure! But, I really think our kids can be given so much power. So much knowledge and confidence. I wish my parents had given me more confidence and internal belief in myself. Honestly, I think it took me 50 years

The energy flow!

Wow, I can not even explain the energy difference I feel being sober. I am accomplishing things I’ve had on my to do list for a long time and things I would brush under the rug. I’m very excited about it! I’ve set up the cabin, set up a new recording studio, started new workout

Day 14 down 10 pounds

I’m very excited to see some of the weight I quickly acquired in December gone. Now I’m back to my normal overweight weight! Haha! But at least now I have about 40 pounds to lose instead of 50. Not drinking gives me the ability to focus on my health. I am able to prepare and

Yesterday was a hard day topped with crazy dreams!

My 16 year old son got into a lot of trouble at the end of 2019. This lead to me increasing my drinking and to me smoking almost a pack a day of cigarettes (I was formerly a “social smoker).” We found him smoking pot and sneaking out at the beginning of his 10th grade

Drunk vs sober

I was thinking of the many contrasts and thought I’d start a list that we can all add to. This should be fun. Numb vs feeling Embarrassed vs proud Present vs absent Dying vs living Self centered vs loving Head ache vs clear head Red eyes vs clear eyes Sad vs happy Numb vs nervous

Hair day! Usually I’d be 3 sheets to the wind by now!

Hair day always meant stopping at the bar next door to the salon to slam down 2 chardonnays and smoke a few cigarettes prior to going to the salon for 2 hours (which would serve me 2 wines)! I would then head home and just keep on drinking. This would be a binge of at

Was I Blind? The wine made me blind and numb!

It’s only day 6 but I’m really shocked at how I’m feeling. I’ve done dry January and different dry months in the past but the goal was always to drink again in a “controlled” way. This time, with there being no more drinking to “look forward to” I am finding myself evaluating where I am